So I'm not sure what to do or what to think. Life has been going in a way best described as not downward for a little while now and it's something that I'm so unused to that it seems...wrong. I'm a little scared I don't mind telling you.
As best I can determine it kind of started at the beginning of the year. My boss' boss saw that I was basically about to quit and reordered my job so that I got moved away from the guy that everyone hates and reported directly to him instead. Good. Then I moved again to a much nicer office. Good. Then I not only survived the lay-offs I came out of it pretty much promoted and given the opportunity, albeit through hard work and some difficulty, to really shine. Pretty damn good.
Then I finally found a place that would not only approve me for a lease but wasn't a place I felt like I was settling for. I move this week to a place that is neither small nor dirty nor in a manky neighborhood nor way out in the middle of nowhere. I actually like the place and they approved me. I think maybe one or two of you know the full story about my fall from grace and resultant struggle to pull myself back out of the muck so let me just say that this is more than a big deal. This is huge. Huger than I can say without going into the whole story, which I'm not going to do.
For the first time in so long I can barely remember it, the future is not completely bereft of light. I don't feel like I'm drowning in abject misery all day everyday. Sometimes I even smile a bit. It's odd I know but it's true. I was there. I felt it happen.
Paranoia is of course quite high. Every time I start to step up I tend to get swatted back down harder than the last time. I can't take that. Not again. Think happy thoughts, everyone. There appears to be light at the end of the tunnel. I sincerely hope it's sunshine.
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Clearly the world is ending. A piece of sky hit me in the head this morning. Well, it was either a piece of sky or a softball, but I'm pretty sure it was the sky.
I'm pretty sure it could be the gleam of light off the shiny portion of a toilet bowl as seen from down in the pipes before a large and unsightly bunghole sits down on it and eliminates green goo, but I'd better not say that out loud because he specifically asked for happy thoughts.
Good thing I know how to keep my inner monologue in check... Sigh... I'm hungry. I wonder if I should brush my teeth later. Probably yes. It's been a while since I've had popcorn. What am I doing? Oh right.
That's great buddy I hope it keeps getting better 'n' better 'n' some junk! You're probably one of the cool people being selected for Not Shit On during the next universal shift to make up for the Shit On portion during the "patriarchy's" last big grasp for successful control. Time of the Child, here we come!
Because you use the word manky, which I like, your good life shall continue.
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